It’s been awhile since I’ve written anything on here. I’m not going to lie, there have been plenty of excuses—I’m too exhausted, too busy, too…well… anything to do this right now. But it hasn’t all been lack of motivation, so I wanted to share what I’ve been up to in the last year: the good, the bad, and the life changing, to catch you up to the new chapter of my life that I’m excited to conquer.
First off, let’s start with THE best day of my entire 26 year existence: the day I married my best friend! If you’ve read any of my previous posts, you’ve definitely seen Sam make a guest appearance here and there. But we did it! We tied the knot a few weeks ago on March 2nd at a place that couldn’t have felt more like us. It was a big wedding, yet it still felt intimate. It was full of happy tears, laughter, drinks and tons of dancing. It was years of friendship, and unconditional family love. It felt magical and meant to be. It was us in every way. And I wish I could re-live it every weekend for the rest of my life.
But with the highs come the lows, and there wasn’t a shortage of those either. I don’t know what it is about weddings but drama seems to crawl out of the woodwork, Amirite? I dealt with my fair share of problems over the last year, some very personal, and very difficult for me. I struggled with an overwhelming amount of stress and anxiety coupled with a ton of changes in my life. I took on more responsibility at work, on top of planning a wedding, and dealing with emotions I wasn’t expecting to feel. My best friend and Maid of Honor moved away to chase her dreams, and while I knew I’d miss her, I didn’t expect to take it as emotionally hard as I have. With so many things happening at once, some days just felt like…a lot.
Now, this isn’t a “feel sorry for me” post in any way. My life is pretty damn great, and I know that, and I know everyone has their lows. I guess what I’m trying to get at is: I’m human, and sometimes life becomes too overwhelming to keep up with your passions, as good as the intent is. Through all of that, I had forgotten what I love so much about writing on here.
I look at this wedding day picture above and I see more than just a bride in her dream dress. I see how far I’ve come. I’m a much happier, driven, and confident person because of my experiences over the last year and I’m so proud of that. In fact, if I flashed back to who I was a year ago, I don’t even know if I would recognize that Jess. Label me stronger.
I kept telling myself that I would just get through the wedding prep and get back to blogging. This is my year to see what I can do with this. I love writing and all of the exciting creativity that comes along with each new blog post. I get excited to share the things that make me so happy in hopes that others will find some joy as well. I have a lot planned that I’m going to work on so follow along with me and always let me know if there’s anything you want to read about in the comments below!